so seriously tell me, teenagers like us can’t have strong pride? or maybe i was just plain rude for not addressing my aunt during cny. those who have read the older post on my old blog might know what happened. i am not on the speaking terms with my aunt and so i really didnt feel like addressing her. intially i wanted to, but some how, i dont know how, i didnt.

when my family and i were on the way back home in the car today, my father asked me why i did that to my aunt. i guess she told him- obivously. i argued back and blah blah… it’s weird how i can’t listen to my dad, but when it comes to mummy, i kinda thought over what she said.

mummy: you are so young and have too much pride. so what do expect when it comes to the older generations? obviously they will get angry when you do not address them.

i dont deny that i talked back , but those words that my mum said did go inside my head. and now, i am thinking whether should i call my aunt and apologise to her. so that means, i have to crush the end of my pride within my stride to solve this matter or else i dont think it will ever be. my aunt has her pride and so do i, but like what my mum said, she is elder than me, definitely her pride is stronger. no way is she going to compromise with me, duh. however, half me doesnt want to.

so tell me, should i or not apologise to my aunt.

visited a few houses today and as usual, every year i feel like i am desolated in a corner with my sister while my cousins(my mum’s side) are chatting away. i dont seems to be able to communicate with them, or rather, when i try (i did try) they dont seems to be very friendly. i dont have a common topic with them, seriously. they talk about chinese pop stars while i know nuts about them. they play maple story (oh my god…), while i seriously hate the game like @%$^^*&$#$%&&*(*(#&^(%)#*(%. okay and they attend church service together while i don’t.

so i am thinking, what if when i have children and it is chinese new year time and i am suppose to bring them for house visiting. it is like i really have not much relatives to visit in the future. and it seems to be the case for the new generation(us), not very good. traditions might as well fade away as time goes by as society progresses and modernise.

yes, i think the cause of the relation between people to drift apart is the urbanisation of society. families do not live under one roof anymore. and often, there is the break-up of traditional extended family forming nuclear families. it is unlike the past, when families share a kitchen, a toilet, a common hall and many other things like wok? haha. and so people are definitely closer to one another in the past than now. moreover, people are caught up with the money and paper chase to have any more time for frequent meeting up thus, the consequence.

it’s quite sad dont you think? the connections our parents built with our relatives are probably going to end in either our generations or the next generation. so is it true that as we move on towards a modern society, people drift apart? well, kinda…

sorry, i am not very good with my words(vocab).

there is always someone who looks like siti* or sounds like her. fucking disgusting. the first person i thought she looked like is Missy Elliot. that’s horrible man, because i always watch mtv and that means i always get reminded of siti. yucks. then now i am watching Rush Hour and there is this female cop who has short hair and she* sounds like the female cop. also, her facial expression, oh my god…

anyway, just in case you dont know who is siti, she is the manager from my former work place and she is a lesbian. seriously disgusting to the core of shit. she asked me if i am a straight and of course i am. and on one particular morning shift, as she walked pass me, she hit me in a joking manner and said my bouncer. geez! when was i your bouncer? and i won’t want to be neither.

siti: boy..
me: no, girl
siti: you straight?
me:yah…

that’s how she asked me. nabei

she even asked my friend to turn crook. i just dont dig why should you ask someone to turn crook just because you are a crook. that’s so wrong. i have no problems with people who are crook but i seriously have big problem with those who encourages people to turn one. do you really expect the whole world to turn crook with you just because you are one? that’s selfish alright. you can go fuck with a girl how many times for all i care, just don’t say shit to your workers just because you are the fucking manager.

you make me feel dirty and disgusted.

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oh man, my parents are quarrelling now because of 2 ang bao(my sister’s). my sister was frantically finding the ang pao which she claims that she left it at the dining table after we got home. some how or rather when my mother started to find, she found it in the shortest time. and guess what? they were under a piece of paper at my father’s table. so my mum told me father why did u hide it? which is highly possible. why? because he is a bit mad. so they ended up quarrelling.

on a lighter note, one more hour to 12 am which means Chinese New Year! woo! reunion dinner was alright, no poker card game because uncle tony (aka banker) had to leave early! but there will be one tmr morning when we go grandma’s house. xD.

today, i went back to qtss for visit(CNY visit) and after which went out to play pool with yunxin, gerlin and jerome. kian wee joined us shortly. however, what luck we have! we saw some JUNIOR from our school that WE didnt wish to see. actually, it is more of like one of the person in that group. then, they entered the pool room right after us. i dont know whether were they trying to follow us in pool-ing because before that, they were getting cold on bowling.

so anyway, about that particular person, i just hate his hair and the way he swings it. those who gets it, should know who i am talking about. it is so fucking irritating me that it makes me wanna get shaver and shave his hair off his fuck head. actually, i hate his ego more and his lan jiao attitude makes me wanna just cuss right into his dickface, hoping i could deflate his balls like deflating a balloon. sometimes i so wanna slap his face and leave handprints all across it. well, just wait and see, one fine fucked up day(because i see him) i will just swear right into his face, serious. wanna bet $10 on that?

speaking of juniors, i read one of my junior’s blog. and is a HE, again. he managed to piss my friend and i with just one bloody post of his. i am just gonna say his name, *drum rolls* XUAN YAO. at least that’s how you pronounce it, otherwise it is written as biuf biufg? i dont know man. okay so back to the topic. actually this happened like one month ago when he commented on our prom night. to be specific, he critisized one of senior’s dressing(not me lah…) and said that she looks like a female ghost. like what ever dick! we dont need your comments, you can save it for yourself, seriously.

and what in the world do you think that you are qualified to judge on people’s clothing. judge yourself first alright, i think your dress sense is as good as NONE. look at those specs hanging on your shit ears, yikes, so ugly please. and please, dont act like a male bitch by bitching on the photos taken on prom just because you are in the fucking photography club. woo! so dai sai… my foot. pui… one last point, just if you think that seniors didnt know about ur blog, well i am sorry, there are referrers around, and i dont mean to say that you are well linked by people, but just be careful with ur fucking mouth and fingers.
(i hope he sees this post. heh)

okay, today is the eve of the eve of Chinese Lunar New year and my mood is kinda good. please dont think that i am feeling pissed, because those are thoughts that are left in my brain just for me to blog. also the emotions were just at that particular moment, not now.

so anyway, i just cant want for the reunion dinner which is tmr. i just love the poker card games that are played after the dinner, when everybody hope that luck is on their side.

there are photos taken today, will post it maybe on the next post.

i had a bad bream last night aka early morning. it still disturbs me right at this very moment as i type, even though i know that it will not become the reality because it was so real. i wanted to blog out the whole scenario of my dream but it sounded so lame and shitty that i decided to not write about it. so in general, i dreamt that singapore was attacked by turkey due turkey losing the WAR to singapore. so turkey was like the sore loser trying to get back at singapore. the whole feeling of singapore being invaded was so horrible and it kinda disturbed me when i woke up.

so anyway, ytd i dropped by the chalet. i was really feel drowsy because i was on medication. so i met michelle first and took a train to pasir ris. on the train, i spent most of the time sleeping neglecting michelle. haha, sry. yunxin, jerome, daming and zi song had school so they came later.

so we reached the chalet, and it was kinda pathetic. there were so little people there like probably around 10 only? the timing of the chalet was wrong because it was held during the weekdays when all the jc-going people are not free(obviously). moreover some people are working and therefore, these explain why.

went to the beach and i took some photos and we spotted 9 dead fishes being washed ashore. holy smokes, it so disgusting and trust that ivan could use a wooden plank that was lying around the beach to fish the dead fishes out of the shallow water. most were rotting but one looked kinda fresh and ivan said hello to it. how retarded.

today i went back to rgps with amanda and valery. so mafan can! we have to sign in at the general office get our visitor pass. tsk. but it’s because of safety reasons, so can’t help it. heh. we talked to mr ho and ms yan. and then went to the canteen for food! woo… my 3 bucks were well spent on a variety of food. prawn noodles, rice with vege and meat, dessert and drinks. haha! cheap food (:

photos! click to enlarge.

on my way there…

i saw this sign.

while they were having fun, i took this photo. (:

i told them to pose for this photo. haha.

yunxin, michelle and me xD

5/9 dead fishes washed ashore. poor things. ; (

i think they were having an affair because the man was quite old compared to the woman? haha.

on our way back. stupid crap, who the heck wants to park in a carpark that charges when there is free parking. haha!

i went back sch with andre ytd for cca. well, it kinda boring looking at them sing, obviously. so anyway, after LOOKING at them sing, i decided we should already go look for ms chee. chatted for quite long and obviously, it was much much nicer than looking at choir sing. a couple of pics of which i will post it later on.

today, i crashed MI and was damn boring. oh and i saw ELIZABETH LEE and MELISSA from 4B. havent seen them for the longest time. wahaha. anyhows, alvina and i had to hide in the toilet during the morning assembly to prevent u from being caught. and yes, some dork who attended the morning assembly got caught because the teacher couldnt find their names in the list. so alvina and i were like stoning in the cubicle until they were dismissed. later on, i found out from zi song and jerome that they thought i was the one who was caught. like -.- , am i that lousy? especially with alvina around, i doubt we can get caught ‘cause she is the queen of crashing. hurhur.

attended GP lesson which was so so boring! and people were talking away when the teacher was lecturing making the class really noisy. the teacher reminded me of mdm shama from qtss annnnd, she is called mdm shama. i find it quite funny because the way they talk sounds so similar and plus the fact that they are called mdm shama. haha! valery and i then resulted in played tic tac toe due to bordom. she won me in all the games. so pro. then, we played hang man. it was so funny. she gave me a theme, ordinary person. haha, then it turned out to be Alvina Ling. HAHA.

went for 2h 15min break and stoned. i was stoning because i wasnt feeling very well due to the running nose and slight sore throat. then, met up with amanda who was also having her break and was supposed to crash her chinese lecture but couldnt because the class was too small. plus the fact that i heard the lecturer saying:

‘’ni men zhuo lai qian mian, wo hao dian ming.'’

which means, she is going to take attendance. so it was definitely a no-no to crash in. so alvina and i ended in the library talking shit with some guys.

alrighty photo time. click on more to view the photos. (more…)

a) Write down 7 things that piss you off ( in no certain order )
1//artists who have gone solo and sucked like ? and still thinks they are good.
2//really bitchy people who thinks that they are sexy. pui
3//people who tYpEs lyykke Thiiss
4//over self- centered/absorbed people
5//people like one of the manager from my former working place
6//when my hair is too thick to style
7//when people are better off than me! wahahaha. i guess life’s unfair. ):

b) Tag 7 people
who ever wants to do this thingy. i did this tagging thing to please valery. lol. xD

i caught Memoirs Of A Geisha ytd with lynsey. it was the free tickets i mention on my old blog. it was rather slow moving. i expected it to be more fast moving tho. nevertheless, it was quite okay. 3.5/5 stars. i didn’t read the book so i won’t know how bad the movie is as compared to the book. zhang zi yi was really pretty in the show. gong li, i have to admit even though i didnt find her pretty in the past, she is kinda pretty too. she slimmed down quite abit i have to say.

so anyway, i am now watching this mtv by simon webbe. i think Blue should just stick together as a band. going solo is really bad for both Webbe and Ryan. the songs they produced are by far one of the worst shit i’ve ever heard. Lee Ryan’s songs arent as bad as Webbe’s though.

the latter’s songs are like so no standard? they are all so safe and low. yes i mean really really low in musical notes wise. like who the hecks thinks that webbe’s songs are great should be given a wake up call. yea, he said that his album is filled with real life songs. like who doesnt know how to write real life songs. maybe he is trying to be Usher writing all the confessions and stuffs, you know like real life songs, but somehow, he cant make it. well too bad. no talent as a soloist. stick to your day job mr webbe, go back to blue. oh and same goes for lee ryan. i am yours and you are mine. blah, haha! what a joke.

as my title says so, my entry is going to be kinda random and sort of like ranting. i feel like cussing, again. but i think i should just stop all the cussing and swearing, for the time being.

i was suppose to crash MI today with Alvina, but, i woke up like 6.20am when i was suppose to meet her at 6.30am. so i holla her and told her. sry girl, i didnt hear the alarm! i know this sounds really stupid. i didnt went back to sleep after waking up, instead i went to the market to have breakfast with mummy, knowing the fact that i havent been spending time with her. i got back home feeling really sleepy and so i went back to bed at 9am? lol.

when i got up in the afternoon, i was forced to wipe the windows. that’s so boring. as i am staying on the 22nd storey, it was really freaky when i looked down from my window as i cleaned it. thoughts ran through my head like what if i dropped? the gravitional force, i guess, will bring me down faster than i can say oh my god. plus the mass of my body, i cant imagine how my body would look like. skull crushed, brains spilling out… yikes. sorry, my imagination went wild.

anyhows, i dreamt of horror. not really like HORROR, AHH!, but it was my o level results. i had a couple of dreams on that shit. there were dreams where i had excellent results, and there were some way bad result. pretty sucky to dream of those shit. i rather have a wet dream of which i dont think i have had one yet. hmmm..

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this blog, by the way, is not really complete as of the layout. things are missing here and there and i am just lazy to edit it. but i will, probably before chinese new year.