trust me, this short post has really to do with the title. i just got a deep gash from swimming. yes, you saw it right. swimming. it is kinda complicated to describe it. initially it felt like some superficial wound like blue black so i continued swimming without even looking at my leg. when i stopped at the shallower end of the pool and take a look at my leg. FUCK, it was fucking disgusting. my skin split and i could see my flesh. so i quickly got out of the pool and the opening began to bleed. the life guard offered to bandage the wound for me. while he was cleaning my wound, i nearly puke at the sight of it. kan na sai. that’s so suay man. RAH!

i just wanna say how fucking fustrated i am since the injury has already ruin my plans for the week, except for wed. i am really worried i have to get stitches and now i am just waiting for my family clinic to be open to seek medication and help. kns kns kns.

no stitches needed please
no stitches needed please
no stitches needed please
no stitches needed please
no stitches needed please
no stitches needed please
no stitches needed please
no stitches needed please

michelle’s mom said if the wound has stopped bleeding=no stitches. goodness, i hope it is really the case.

i realised that i have been spending a lot ever since i came back from the perth fieldtrip last year june. i think the cause of all these is that i shopped way too much when i was there. it somehow became part of my habit. wow, that’s fast for just one week. i want partically everything that i like. things like dunks, wallets, handphone, shorts are on my list and it goes on and is still counting.

this phenomenon that is happening to me is really horrifying. i’ve been burning holes in my wallet and it is nearly reduced to ashes. luckily my main bank account’s bank book is well kept in my mother’s drawer otherwise, i wouldnt have second thoughts of withdrawing cash from it and spurge if it was with me. then years of saving would jolly well be spent on material things. i cant imagine that because if that really happens, i will serious regret my actions and bang myself on the head against the wall.

another thing to do with money is that i have been hooked on to pool recently. it is quite an expensive hobby i wish i could stop. damn, that’s not the only expensive hobby i realised i have. my comic collection had caused me a bomb over the years. kns i know for sure i can’t possibly stop my comic collection but surely i can put a stop to pool. maybe just play once in a while and that will do?

so, i cooked up a plan; exercise regularly to i can keep my mind focus on losing weight and stop the thoughts of shopping. haha! hopefully it works. that might stop me from popping by town so frequently and do window shopping and get my heart set on something i like very much. nope, it must not happen again this upcoming month. RAH.

anyway, i am going for a swim now so ciao!

post script: WOO! my computer has fixed itself. seriously, i left it there for weeks to recuperate and yea! it worked. i can even load photobucket and dictionary DOT com. hehe ((:

tammy nyp story is all over singapore. yea, if you dont know, she is a nyp student whose porn video got sent all over singapore. the video has even went [edited]to neighbourhood countries, i heard. ALL AROUND THE WORLD. tsk. TSK! [/edited]

seriously, i would really courage those of you who are looking for whatever part to stop looking. i have read from many blogs comment that people are looking for the many parts of the video. yea, it is so fucked up. tsk. but then again, that’s your choice…

however what if that were you in that video and it was circulating around. i doubt you will have any mood to watch. or maybe even worse, you feel like just ending your life because your dirty lil’ secret just got leaked out to the outside world. i can’t imagine how you can walk the streets with this kinda of thing going on destroying your life. haiz. maybe you(those desperate for the video) would like to make one yourself and later it get stolen and distributed. haha, till then, if you can tell me you feel good with things like that going on, i kowtow to you, really.

i dont know man, she is only 17 and so screwed because of some frigging bitch who posted the damn video thru out the whole sch and soon, it got all over singapore [edited]and all over the world [/edited]geez i wonder how is she going to live her life…

from what i read, it was a girl who was JEALOUS of her popularity and therefore stole her handphone and uploaded the video and mass-emailed through out the whole sch. it seems like some Cruel Intention movie, so childish and immature. not that i am very mature, but at least i don’t habour such thoughts.

i thought paris hilton sex video scandal was enough to teach the world how stupid it was to do this kinda thing. but somehow, it breeded a new trend and it is half way across the world that something same happened. it destroys one’s life mentally and the person who did the evil deed gets the satisfaction and that’s it right? is there even benefits to it, i guess not. yawns, aren’t you tired of these shits?

post-script: if you cant be as popular as someone else, accept it and take it in stride. why go all out to make ones life miserable? life goes on even if you are not popular, no big deal anyway.

i dont know why, i dont feel like blogging these few days. HMM…?

anyway, i think it is time that i pay my dues(i took this line from somwhere…i cant rmb). monday, WE went sentosa to celebrate YJ’s birthday in advance. i did kayak most of the time cos it was bloody fun just drifting on the kayak on the sea. but it was kinda freaky thinking about how many had died swimming there. sabrina was freaking herself out thinking that things beneath will suck her down if she capsize. HURHUR. -.- but in the end NOTHING supernatural happened. CHOY.

dinner was on YJ. SO NICE!

THANK YOU YEE JIE.

we ate pizza hut and i was damn bloated because yun xin and sabrina gave me some of their share. but i didnt finish it because look at me, please… too much food, too much fats.

yes, now the condition of my skin is chao ta, kinda red and dry. boo…! i dont want it to peel but i think it will soon even tho i applied lotion. hmmm.

i have already submitted my jae choices. all are poly courses. actually i wanted to make the last few as jc courses but zhen ‘ai said the govt will immediately throw you into jc cos, the jae for jc starts first. yea so in the end i didnt put. i hope seriously i wont regret the choices i made. *cross fingers*

initially, i was really confused with what courses to put. like really confused. i was flipping the yellow booklet to and fro. totally direction-less. i was just like seeing what description of the courses suit me best and just pen it down as a choice. yes, before i had my results, i was bent on going to aerospace, but after hearing my father saying that it is a tough job and not for females i almost gave up. but luckily, i went down to the sp for the jae thing and phew, my mind was clear and that aerospace electronics is my choice. chemical process technology sounds interesting so i put it as one of my choices too.

The Fog is out tmr ! WOO! TOM WELLING! xD i am watching with camie - horror movie lover. oh ya oh ya… i have been waiting for this movie to be out for so long since last year when i saw it online. and i didnt know camie was waiting for it too. haha. anyway i hope the show will freak me out otherwise a waste of money. actually no, i get to see mr welling on silver screen, so it is worth it! xD

Da Vinci Code the movie is coming out in May and i really pray hard that it is as good as the book. have faith in it cos tom hanks is in it. woo… if you havent read the book, you should go the nearest book store and grab one. superb story. \m/ on dan brown. the book made me stayed up til 6am! and the climax was really exciting and i was like screaming. wahaha. but in the end i couldnt take it anymore, i decided to hit the sack and then continued 6hrs later. yea man.

the following conversation happened before i received my results…

uncle: what do you intend to do after o levels results?

me: go poly…

uncle: why don’t go JC?

me: i don’t think i can make it and i am not an academic person. probably will just fail A levels.

uncle: but thru jc you can get into uni.

me: they opening up alot of places for poly students now. and i mean alot as compared to the past

uncle: so what you gonna take in poly?

me: maybe aerospace.

uncle: why not animations(IT). it is quite popular. aerospace market is very small, very hard to find job.

i was getting really really annoyed.

me: the market is expanding. and moreover the pay is high and i have the interest. i don’t like animations btw.

great just great. i dont get why people just look down on poly students. yea those are the old thinkings when they feel that entering poly is really xiah sway thing and getting into a jc is a prestige. come on, times have changed and poly is getting really popular and seriously, i dont see the big damn deal of getting into jc by ‘’force'’ and fail the fuck out of your A levels. waste of 2 years.

oh and i dont see what’s the point of getting into a course that i don’t like and waste time and money on it. like asking me to take up animations in IT when i dont like animations for nuts and i think i will go crazy just creating a character. i can’t imagine myself having to attend lectures that i have no interests in, so dont tell me about having a career of the same case.

these two situations make me feel really fed up and just feel like screaming into their ears telling them :

For 1st situation: it is my choice! it is not as if by going poly i have no future! times have changed so please change your mindset too before you become one of those antique in the museum.

For 2nd situation: how about eating shit? eating shit is quite popular nowadays. how about committing suicide? jumping down the flat is quite popular nowdays based on the newspaper reports.

i have received my results and yeah! i say, i did beyond my expectation. now i have 2 choices. to go to jc or stick to my plan, to the poly.

i won’t say i scored well, but it is acceptable for me and my folks. 17 points for L1R5 and 14 points for L1R4. i improved quite alot from the prelims, so did some of my friends. anyway, for that 17 points i got 250 bucks from my folks and got myself yet another pair of shoes. haha, shoes freak.

anyway, i don’t feel like blogging anymore. my da vinci code is waiting for me.

back to reading!

AHH! less than 14 hours is the O LEVELS RESULT. bloody hell. i didnt realise how time flew pass me just like a blink of an eye, not until when when i am in the month of feb.

right now i feel really eccentric. like sometimes freaking out, sometimes not.

tagged by valery

SEVEN THINGS THAT SCARE ME
1.death
2.insects that fly, eeee…
3.spiders
4.supernatural stuffs
5.o levels result
6.heights, but i dont have phobia. do you get me?
7.needles, hate them!

SEVEN RANDOM SONGS
1.one_u2 & mary j. blige
2.this boy_franz ferdinand
3.empty apartments_yellowcard
4.be without you_mary j. blige
5.stuck in a moment that you can’t get out_u2
6.holiday_green day
7.somebody told me_the killers

SEVEN THINGS I LIKE THE MOST
1.nike dunks!
2.my just bought nike sweater
3.lego
4.watches
5.my rayban shades
6.socks, wahahaha
7.music!

SEVEN IMPORTANT THINGS IN MY BEDROOM
1.bed, like duh!
2.pillow
3.cupboard
4.all other things in my cupboard
5.cds
6.speakers
7.ipod

SEVEN RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME
1.okay, i have to admit it, i am brand conscience
2.vulgar, recently lah
3.be can impatient/patient. depends lor
4.i can be very irritating, seriously.
5.sometimes bad tempered
6.loves to eat
7.i love lego.

SEVEN THINGS I CAN DO
1.fake burp
2.move my ear without touching it
3.rotate my tongue 180d
4.dance.haha
5.spin my pen
6.talk
7.and keep quiet

SEVEN THINGS I SAY THE MOST ONLINE
1.haha or even more ‘ha’
2.lol
3.-.-
4.eh
5.heyy, or even more ‘y’
6.lah
7.leh

SEVEN CELEBRITY CRUSHES
1.TOM WELLING! xD
2.jake gyllenhaal
3.ryan phillippe
4.josh duhamel
5.jesse metcalfe (desperate housewives’ lawn boy. he is so hooottt)
6.jc chasez
7. larry mullen Jr. (U2’s drummer)

SEVEN QUALITIES I WANT IN A BOYFRIEND
1.he must be funny
2.sensitive. (not too sensitive, but just right)
3.taller than me. okay it is not as if i am very tall
4.he must be faithful. of cos lah.
5.no bad breath pls! sorry, it is not a quality. he must be NOT POSSESSIVE.
6.family guy, HAHA
7.got fashion sense

SEVEN PEOPLE I WANT TO DO THIS
1.ANYONE.

NOTE: being possessive is not a quality in love. and i HATE HATE possessive guys. immature shit to do.

i know now my PC has officially gone bersek. i am currently typing this post on my father’s old laptop, window 98. bloody hell… okay, about my pc, i have no idea why it always disconnects me from the internet and it caused the post that i typed to be gone. and also, i wasnt able to view photobucket using the pc. now i can and it is not the server’s fault, it is the bloody comp’s fault. so i guess i have to format the pc again.

anyway, i heard it on the news already and so it is official that o levels result will be out on 10 feb. actually, the news didnt really say the release day in a direct way. it first talked about the JAE online and then said that the registeration starts on friday after we received the results. so it means it is less than 4 days away.

i am starting to imagine the worst case scenario like i get really bad results and all those shit that are bad for health. but i shouldn’t freak out now and should enjoy the last days of my life before hell comes, if it really comes… so i planned to freak out on thursday night like maybe throw up, not able to sleep and turn up looking like a zombie the next afternoon in school. seriously, i almost threw up before the s.s. paper and geog paper. nervousness and heart pumping like crap caused it, but i managed to keep it down and look fine(altho i wasn’t).

okay so when i went online, felicia popped me an IM and she was freaking out like friday i die leh. so i had to calm her down telling her not to freak out and relax and enjoy. dont waste time freaking out now, no point cause it is still 4 days away. ha, how optimistic, so unlike me.