I don’t know why. Recently I have so many things in my head that when people talk to me, I didn’t even realise it. And sometimes, I forgot about the things said a few minutes before - clearly my heart and mind weren’t in the conversation. Xuan says that I am weird. *shrugs*

Also, I feel so unmotivated for many things, totally. What the fuck is wrong with me man. I give up so easily on things recently. AHH. I am aware of that myself. Everything has an excuse for not doing and that cease the guilt that is in me. But that guilt always come back to me when I am lying on my bed, it just comes rushing into me. And everytime I think about the things I did in disadvantage to myself, I can’t sleep. So I always stay up late to make myself tired so as to fall asleep easier.

I am tired. Goodbye.

p/s: sorry, thoughts are pretty incoherent. post is so emo. oh well…